From October to December of this year, I spent most of the time living with myself and my children while my husband worked about four hours away. He came and saw us most weekends, but a lot of the times it was just me. And it was hard. Now that I'm living back with my… Continue reading Thoughts on marriage and living without my husband
Two Thoughts on Economics and Life
1. I was sitting in church, listening to a lesson where we were talking about helping each other and how it is good to receive help. We often find it difficult to be vulnerable and ask for the things that we both need and want. We try to do it all on our own, thinking… Continue reading Two Thoughts on Economics and Life
Experience is worth more than accomplishment
Every day, week, month, and year, I have constantly made lists of things I wanted to accomplish. But today I wondered if my focus has been in the wrong place. Today, my kids wanted to get sledding on mostly melted snow. It wasn't on my to-do list, but it sure was fun. The snow was… Continue reading Experience is worth more than accomplishment
Change is the only constant
So I have been doing some reflection. I can become quite a miserable person. I always want something more out of life. And while sometimes that seems like a rather ungrateful thing, I just get bored easily. I can't do the same thing over and over again. I have tried to find the perfect routine,… Continue reading Change is the only constant
some thoughts recently
I have been practicing mindfulness lately and as I have been doing it, I have noticed things that I thought I enjoyed actually make me miserable. These include: Eating more than one piece of candy. Watching lots of YouTube videos. Procrastinating cleaning my house. Sitting and doing nothing. Not cooking for dinner. Binge watching Netflix… Continue reading some thoughts recently
Remembering others in hard times
There have been times when I think about all the hard things that are happening and I feel like I'm alone and abnormal and that so many other people have it better than I do. Of course, that's not true. Life is universally hard. We all go through very difficult things: childbirth is hard, death… Continue reading Remembering others in hard times
Keeping Calm
Today was an interesting day: when I came out of the shower, there was a strong smell in the air and my daughter was crying. I quickly found her along with half of a bottle of barbecue sauce on the kitchen counter. She was crying because she was covered in barbecue sauce and she kept… Continue reading Keeping Calm
Fear not
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. (Isaiah 41:10) The scripture mostly speaks for itself. I have been afraid, but then with the Lord's help, I've… Continue reading Fear not
so much
I keep writing and the words are difficult to express. Life is so much bigger than I ever imagined. It is filled with so much more joy, sorrow, questions, answers, doubt, and faith. It is so much more complicated sometimes, and yet in other moments it seems so incredibly simple. When I moved to our… Continue reading so much
home
I am home. It will never really be my home--it belongs to more than me. My Grandpa built this house, and it is a house that has to be loved in order for it to continue to exist. I do love it: when I wake up and look across to the golden hillside in the… Continue reading home