So I have been doing some reflection. I can become quite a miserable person. I always want something more out of life. And while sometimes that seems like a rather ungrateful thing, I just get bored easily. I can't do the same thing over and over again. I have tried to find the perfect routine,… Continue reading Change is the only constant
some thoughts recently
I have been practicing mindfulness lately and as I have been doing it, I have noticed things that I thought I enjoyed actually make me miserable. These include: Eating more than one piece of candy. Watching lots of YouTube videos. Procrastinating cleaning my house. Sitting and doing nothing. Not cooking for dinner. Binge watching Netflix… Continue reading some thoughts recently
Remembering others in hard times
There have been times when I think about all the hard things that are happening and I feel like I'm alone and abnormal and that so many other people have it better than I do. Of course, that's not true. Life is universally hard. We all go through very difficult things: childbirth is hard, death… Continue reading Remembering others in hard times
Keeping Calm
Today was an interesting day: when I came out of the shower, there was a strong smell in the air and my daughter was crying. I quickly found her along with half of a bottle of barbecue sauce on the kitchen counter. She was crying because she was covered in barbecue sauce and she kept… Continue reading Keeping Calm
Fear not
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. (Isaiah 41:10) The scripture mostly speaks for itself. I have been afraid, but then with the Lord's help, I've… Continue reading Fear not
so much
I keep writing and the words are difficult to express. Life is so much bigger than I ever imagined. It is filled with so much more joy, sorrow, questions, answers, doubt, and faith. It is so much more complicated sometimes, and yet in other moments it seems so incredibly simple. When I moved to our… Continue reading so much
home
I am home. It will never really be my home--it belongs to more than me. My Grandpa built this house, and it is a house that has to be loved in order for it to continue to exist. I do love it: when I wake up and look across to the golden hillside in the… Continue reading home
Forget about being a good or bad parent . . .
How many times have you told yourself that you're a good mom/dad or a bad mom/dad? You've probably done it a lot--and if you are like me, you are usually saying to yourself that you aren't good enough. The thought of being a good parent or a bad parent is not very useful. First, who… Continue reading Forget about being a good or bad parent . . .
Pain can be good
In the city finals course during an episode of American Ninja Warriors last year, Jessie Graff was trying to finish the course but was exhausted and didn't have the strength to finish. She fell, knowing she had reached her limit. But throughout it all, she was smiling. When asked about it during the interview after… Continue reading Pain can be good
It’s okay to make a decision even if you are uncertain
Recently, I've been making some decisions about my life. If you know me well, you know I am not the most decisive person in the world. I feel a lot of uncertainty sometimes, and it's difficult for me to make a decision. Part of this is that I see pros and cons without being able… Continue reading It’s okay to make a decision even if you are uncertain