some thoughts recently
I have been practicing mindfulness lately and as I have been doing it, I have noticed things that I thought I enjoyed actually make me miserable. These include:
- Eating more than one piece of candy.
- Watching lots of YouTube videos.
- Procrastinating cleaning my house.
- Sitting and doing nothing.
- Not cooking for dinner.
- Binge watching Netflix videos.
- Eating lots of potato chips.
There are things that are a bit addictive, but they don’t really provide any pleasure. I often just click on things because it’s easy, not because I really want to.
I am happier when I work hard, learn, play with my kids, go on adventures, try new things, serve others, talk with people in real life, etc. But those things take effort.
And spending too much time on my computer or eating unhealthy things or not being present in my own life takes little effort at all. It’s easy in a way, but it makes my life incredibly more difficult because I find myself miserable and without motivation to do what I know is right.
The best way I have to deal with this is to plan out my day and get a good start. If I start out the day knowing what I want to do and start working hard and being present at the very beginning, it’s easier to keep doing that throughout the day.
And if I make sure that my house is clean and things are generally put together before I go to bed, I also have an easier time starting my day right.
So this is what I’m working on right now. I’m feeling a lot happier with myself and a lot more in tune to what brings happiness into my life and what brings misery.