Last post, I talked about struggles with mental health. When I have struggled, I have often prayed, sometimes in desperation, asking over and over for help. And there have been often times when I didn't feel anything. I wanted the peace of the Spirit so many times, and I couldn't feel it. Recently, I read… Continue reading Prayer in the midst of despair
Category: my life
My experience with bipolar 2
A few months after the birth of my third child, I was diagnosed with Grave's Disease or hyperthyroidism, where my thyroid was working too hard. Medication worked really well, putting me back to normal with no side effects. I went into remission and then relapsed two and a half years later, but medication worked again.… Continue reading My experience with bipolar 2
Doing things and getting things done
I like to make lists. But then I have a problem: I am so caught up in getting the list done and checking it off that I don't spend any time actually enjoying what I'm doing. This creates a lot of stress in my life because I am rarely present and mindful. Instead, I just… Continue reading Doing things and getting things done
A look back
(This was written around January 2018, two month before I moved away from Wyoming.) When I first came to Wyoming, I was unimpressed. It was dull and windy. I came on a particularly lousy day, as I found out later. It felt isolated and confusing because it was different than anything I was used to.… Continue reading A look back
Six thoughts
I've had quite a bit of technology problems lately: I locked myself out of my phone and ended up resetting it; my computer blew up with electrical problems; and a whole bunch of files on my website randomly disappeared. Conclusions: keep good backups of all your stuff. In multiple ways. I like to have things… Continue reading Six thoughts
enjoying where I live
A few days ago, I was sitting at home with my kids. We were bored. There isn't a lot to do where I live, or very many places to go--and I have usually blamed my circumstances on any discontent I've felt, and wanted to be somewhere else. But I moved away from this and then… Continue reading enjoying where I live
A little adjustment can make a large change
Do you ever feel like you need some change in your life? And not just a little change, but a big change, like throwing out all of your stuff, moving, never looking at the internet again, and changing your appearance completely. Sometimes we can make small adjustments in order to have the large change that… Continue reading A little adjustment can make a large change
Thoughts on marriage and living without my husband
From October to December of this year, I spent most of the time living with myself and my children while my husband worked about four hours away. He came and saw us most weekends, but a lot of the times it was just me. And it was hard. Now that I'm living back with my… Continue reading Thoughts on marriage and living without my husband
Change is the only constant
So I have been doing some reflection. I can become quite a miserable person. I always want something more out of life. And while sometimes that seems like a rather ungrateful thing, I just get bored easily. I can't do the same thing over and over again. I have tried to find the perfect routine,… Continue reading Change is the only constant
some thoughts recently
I have been practicing mindfulness lately and as I have been doing it, I have noticed things that I thought I enjoyed actually make me miserable. These include: Eating more than one piece of candy. Watching lots of YouTube videos. Procrastinating cleaning my house. Sitting and doing nothing. Not cooking for dinner. Binge watching Netflix… Continue reading some thoughts recently