When I was younger, I was so incredibly scared to call people, and that fear has never really left me. But I still call people when I have to. And sometimes because I want to.

I’ve been thinking about applying to graduate school, and the scariest thing about the application process is letters of recommendation. When I was younger, I didn’t like to talk to adults very much, and I was very scared of professors when I went to college. I’m less scared now, but I still don’t want to ask someone to write a letter for me. But I will.

Submitting building plans for a building permit (and then subsequent inspections) has also been terrifying for me. And doing a lot of the renovation has been a bit scary.

I’ve also given birth four times, and that was scary the first time because I had never done it before. The second and third times were fine. But then the third birth was hard, so I got a lot more scared the fourth time. Anyway. Birth can be scary.

As I’m thinking about, I wonder if I haven’t done enough scary things in my life.