Buying and Owning Books

I don’t like buying books. Sort of. Let me explain.

When I own a book and I haven’t read it yet, it makes me feel guilty and weird. It feels overwhelming, like a huge responsibility that I need to read this book, and if I don’t do it soon, I’m doing something wrong.

I know lots of people who own books and they like collecting them and having them and reading them when they feel like it. I am not that sort of person.

What I like to do is read books first and buy them second.

I recently purchased three books. I’ve read them all before, but I loved them, and I want to refer back to them. Those are the sort of books I like to own.

I’m not a big physical book reader. I prefer reading audiobooks and e-books. But I still find physical books handy for reference. I just pulled out an economics textbook the other day to check on something. I like having books on the shelf that remind me of what I’ve read and what I’ve loved.

So this is my ideal way of interacting with books: listen to the audiobook, read it on my Kindle, or read/highlight a pdf. Then if I really love it, I want to buy an actual version of it that I probably won’t ever read, but I will refer back to on occasion.

Sidenote: I got rid of all my philosophy books after I graduated from school the first time. I didn’t think I would ever need them again. I sort of regret that, but I also moved a lot, and it isn’t fun to move lots of books around.

(My books in 2013. I got rid of a lot of them.)

Some Favorites from 2023

Places: Goblin Valley and Disneyland. I love Goblin Valley and we ended up going there twice this year, and it was loads of fun to walk around and explore. But Disneyland is magical, even if it is this weirdly artificial sort of magic, and I’m glad we went.

Discovery: Laziness is okay. It’s okay to not get things done all the time or not to complete assignments when they aren’t really required or to clean your house when you feel like it. I still also value working hard and not squandering away my time, but I don’t always need to be working.

TV: Strange New Worlds. I’ve watched a lot of Star Trek, but Strange New Worlds was the most fun.

Song: Anna Lapwood’s adaptation of Test Drive from How to Train Your Dragon. Not only do I love to hear Anna Lapwood play this, but she published sheet music and I’m trying to learn it.

Movie: What’s Eating Gilbert Grape and Across the Spider-Verse.

Book Series: The Unselected Journals of Emma M. Lion by Beth Brower. I read all of the published books this year and look forward to reading them for years to come.

Fiction book: Left-Handed Booksellers of London by Garth Nix. This was very enjoyable and good fun. I enjoyed the sequel as well.

Self-help book: The Upside of Stress by Kelly McGonigal. Life needs to be a bit stressful. Did a video lecture on this for a teaching assistant assignment.

General nonfiction: Being Mortal by Atul Gawande and The In-Between by Hadley Vlahos These were great books to read together, both a combination of personal experiences and learning about the end of life.

Philosophy books: Choosing Well by Chrisoula Andreou and The Tyranny of Merit by Michael Sandel.

Functional purchase: My desk and office chair.

Most fun purchase: An incubator, since we got baby ducks out of it.

Surprising purchase: Running shoes. I didn’t think I ever would like running, but I ran a 5k and 10k this year.

Podcast: Lateral with Tom Scott. I don’t usually like podcasts, but I love this one.

Ideas/research: I really like learning about narrative economics, intrinsic motivation, self-sacrificing altruism, and self-interest.

YouTube channel: How to Cook That. Consistently great videos that I always look forward to.

Project: Finishing my home renovation.