In 2018, I put a book I had written (One Thing is Needful) in a figurative drawer and thought I would never look at again. But in 2020, I got it out again and started working on it. Two years later, I’ve basically finished it. I’m working on sharing it more soon.
I try to follow the Lord’s will about when to do things. Sometimes I do the right thing, but it’s not the right time yet. Sometimes it takes me a whole lot longer than I want it to.
In the end of 2018, I moved to this home in the mountains and I thought I would live here for forever. But I didn’t stay more than a few months, and when I moved away, I thought I would never come back. A year later, at the end of 2019, we owned this house and it’s been my home for almost two years now.
I really worked to get a novel published before I had kids, but it didn’t work out. I thought I wasn’t good enough to be a writer and that I failed. But years later, I went to a conference, surrounded by authors and people trying to write, and I realized that I didn’t fail because I wasn’t good enough. I failed because it wasn’t the right time for me yet, and I had more things to learn.
The right people will be in your life at the right time. I have felt very much alone and I thought no one was there–but those times forced me to reach out to people who needed me. And then people came when I needed them to. I was led to people who I needed to connect with. I learned from others when I needed to learn those things.
I still don’t know the timetable for many things in my life. Some things will be a lot slower than I want them to be. Some things might happen a lot quicker.
But if I trust in the Lord, I can do His will.
And His will is much more about becoming the person I need to be than just getting things done.
According to an app that I use, I spent almost 6 hours one week on Google. I spent 3 hours 15 minutes on Netflix. I spent 3 hours on Gmail. And I spent another 3 hours on YouTube. I spent less time on Facebook, as I have been checking it once a week (which is completely sufficient).
But 6 hours searching for things on the internet? I don’t know if that is totally accurate, but I do spend too much time looking up what randomly comes into my brain. I am sure that some of my searches are productive, but many of them are not.
I often will stop one method of wasting time only to fill it up with another one. I stop checking Facebook only to look at the news more often. I stop watching Netflix only to watch more YouTube.
I don’t want to waste time, but I persist.
(Most of this discussion has been wasting time by staring at a screen–but this is not the only way I waste time. I recently spent 10 hours reading a book that I had already read before, and I don’t see how that’s much better than watching 10 hours of movies.)
I get distracted very easily sometimes. I do things that are easy and fun, instead of taking the time and effort to focus and work hard.
So how do I focus? How do I prioritize?
Planning what I want to do in a day and when I want to do it.
Get out of the house and change my location.
Keep trying even when I get distracted, and bring myself back to focusing again.
Fill up my life with enough good things to do that I don’t have time and energy to sit there and be bored.
Use routines so that I know what to do next instead of constantly trying to figure it out.
Block of certain hours for focus and certain times for leisure.
Review my goals, values, and commitments regularly.
Get enough sleep, exercise, eat, and drink water.
Take breaks by getting off the computer when I’ve been on it for a while.
Track my time so I have to be accountable for where the minutes go.
Have lots of good things to do that I really enjoy doing and want to do.