From October to December of this year, I spent most of the time living with myself and my children while my husband worked about four hours away. He came and saw us most weekends, but a lot of the times it was just me. And it was hard. Now that I'm living back with my… Continue reading Thoughts on marriage and living without my husband
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Two Thoughts on Economics and Life
1. I was sitting in church, listening to a lesson where we were talking about helping each other and how it is good to receive help. We often find it difficult to be vulnerable and ask for the things that we both need and want. We try to do it all on our own, thinking… Continue reading Two Thoughts on Economics and Life
Remembering others in hard times
There have been times when I think about all the hard things that are happening and I feel like I'm alone and abnormal and that so many other people have it better than I do. Of course, that's not true. Life is universally hard. We all go through very difficult things: childbirth is hard, death… Continue reading Remembering others in hard times
Keeping Calm
Today was an interesting day: when I came out of the shower, there was a strong smell in the air and my daughter was crying. I quickly found her along with half of a bottle of barbecue sauce on the kitchen counter. She was crying because she was covered in barbecue sauce and she kept… Continue reading Keeping Calm
so much
I keep writing and the words are difficult to express. Life is so much bigger than I ever imagined. It is filled with so much more joy, sorrow, questions, answers, doubt, and faith. It is so much more complicated sometimes, and yet in other moments it seems so incredibly simple. When I moved to our… Continue reading so much
Forget about being a good or bad parent . . .
How many times have you told yourself that you're a good mom/dad or a bad mom/dad? You've probably done it a lot--and if you are like me, you are usually saying to yourself that you aren't good enough. The thought of being a good parent or a bad parent is not very useful. First, who… Continue reading Forget about being a good or bad parent . . .
Pain can be good
In the city finals course during an episode of American Ninja Warriors last year, Jessie Graff was trying to finish the course but was exhausted and didn't have the strength to finish. She fell, knowing she had reached her limit. But throughout it all, she was smiling. When asked about it during the interview after… Continue reading Pain can be good
It’s okay to make a decision even if you are uncertain
Recently, I've been making some decisions about my life. If you know me well, you know I am not the most decisive person in the world. I feel a lot of uncertainty sometimes, and it's difficult for me to make a decision. Part of this is that I see pros and cons without being able… Continue reading It’s okay to make a decision even if you are uncertain
Happily Ever After
And they lived happily ever after . . . It's the ending to children's stories, and it's of course entirely untrue. They don't live happily ever after, because they will eventually die. That's life. Coming-of-age stories end with the main character supposedly finding out who they are and starting on the direction they will continue… Continue reading Happily Ever After
Life is not a roller coaster
I have often thought that life was like a roller coaster, with lots of ups and downs. And then I realized one day that life isn't a roller coaster at all. I'm not simply heading up or down--it's way more complex than that. It's a journey, taking lots of different paths. When it snows, the… Continue reading Life is not a roller coaster