Pain shifts me away from pride and I face the unknown. Uncertain, I embrace the darkness, except for it's not dark, because there is a fire and it transforms and refines. Pain is the best part of being human. I change as humility allows the disposal of false beliefs. I become beautiful in the unknowing.… Continue reading Transform
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All kinds of love
I've been talking about the five love languages with my husband lately. We took the quizzes to figure out what our love languages were, but I didn't particularly like the results. I would rather quality time than gifts, but I still want gifts. I need all different types of love. I need physical affection and… Continue reading All kinds of love
Living, culture, faith
Intellect: burning, fueled by questions and answers and questions and doubt. The facts and the arguments and the proofs can burn so hot that they melt and change and reform. Refining when kept in control, but destroying when it attempts to answer everything. Culture is the lens which we view everything and we are yelled… Continue reading Living, culture, faith
Thoughts
A few weeks ago, I was weed whacking my yard. I sometimes got a little stuck at looking right in front of me, and I found that I had to look up and around to make sure I was going in the right direction. That's a bit like life: I can get stuck in the… Continue reading Thoughts
It’s not that complicated, except for it is
Everyone has been talking about racism lately. I have been listening and thinking, but I have largely been silent on the internet, though I have talked about it with others. I have felt unsure of what to write--and I don't tend to just go along with what is trending. I want to be more genuine… Continue reading It’s not that complicated, except for it is
Some ideas I’ve had
Sometimes I think a lot about ideas sometimes. Maybe some of these thoughts will be interesting. Maybe you won't know what I'm talking about. Do you ever have random ideas that you don't know what to do with? *** When I've had some spiritual questions and thoughts and doubts, I've often thought that spiritual knowledge… Continue reading Some ideas I’ve had
words headline lead sentence paragraph search make sense of jumbled pieces words to fit the world together google facebook new york times trying to get past paywalls what is happening what will happen millions of answers no answer sleeping searching wake and shut it down. words don’t exist noise recedes the pounding of needing to… Continue reading
There is always light
Over the past few days, I have read article after article, trying to figure out how we can go back to normal. I read about different possibilities of what might happen and I want to know how this end. But we don't go back to normal--we find a a new normal instead, something that we… Continue reading There is always light
Thoughts
I've always thought I had a problem spending too much time on the computer and that if I could just get better, I would overcome the problem and it would be gone. It was my problem, and I had to come up with a solution. But that's not really how things work: computers and the… Continue reading Thoughts
Rejecting Productivity
I'm not great at this. I love being productive. I love getting so many things done in a day. And it sounds like a really good thing: learn and create and do and earn and work and work and work. I love hard work. But productivity is this whole other thing. It's the rate of… Continue reading Rejecting Productivity